I never did anything wrong to you. not once. but yet everytime we have a temporal lapse in our friendship I’m the one blamed for it. I know that I didn’t reach out to you or ask you to hangout or anything either but as we both know, a phone does work both ways. you couldve asked me to hangout whenever and i would’ve said yes. i would’ve even called off of work just to see you because thats how much i miss our friendship. but everytime ive asked you to hangout before you gave me an “idk” or a “maybe”…i realize we’re not nearly as close as we used to be but you still shouldn’t treat me that way or use me as a backup person to hangout with when you have nothing to do. I realize I’m busy alot, i know between work, and mma i dont really have too much free time. but the little time i do have, i would gladly spend with you. its stupid how everytime we dont hangout for a while or dont talk you act like it has to be a permanent thing. and everytime you act pretty shitty towards me for a reason i still have yet to figure out. i try harder then you do to make this friendship work and thats obvious because im always the one trying to talk to you first. honestly you’re the one person i thought i could always count on to not treat me just like another person, to not make me feel like shit. but everyone lets me down so i guess i should get used to it. im not doing this for some fucking sob story or anything relevant to that, im writing this to say i miss being close with you man. i miss when we would just aimlessly walk around for hours and find anything and everything to do. i miss when we would sit at hilary and jump off the top of the playground. i miss when we would go to the store and i would always buy you flaming hot cheetos and a pink sobe. i miss making the corniest jokes ever possible and still being able to laugh my balls off because it was with my bestfriend. i miss when you used to come to my cabin with me and just sit there doing nothing. i miss when we crashed my ATV twice in one day and chased all those turkeys around. i miss when we used to do everything together and now they’re all just memories. i dont want you to be one of those people who fell into my past and i’m not gonna let that happen. seriously man i miss you…

if she was my daughter, i would give her anything after this